Sunday, January 3, 2010
Happy New Year !
I surprised myself when I came to visit my blog recently and saw the date of my last post ~ September 8th, 2009. Four months have disappeared since last writing. Almost 120 days since writing about the life and times of a 52 year old menopausal woman. A woman who recently realized that she graduated from high school 35 years ago. That was a sit down and take a deep breath moment. A woman who realized she can no longer explain away her belly fat by telling people she just had a baby - her baby will be 25 years old this year. A woman who is thinking that maybe she should seriously consider getting a wig since her thinning hair issue doesn't appear to be connected to the fact that she just had a baby since said baby will be 25 in September. A woman who has decided to write a 'to do' list for 2010 ~ included on that ever growing list is conquering her fear of making a gingerbread house; to be able to walk successfully in stilettos; to attend the Cherry Blossom Festival in Washington DC, and to go on more dates with her wonderful husband of 31 years while wearing stilettos. The list is always growing, constantly evolving, just as this woman of 52 years is. Lists are what keep this woman organized, moving forward and she often must keep lists of her lists. It is not for loss of memory ~ it is because of the depth and extent of thoughts which bounce around in her gray matter. The joy of being a grandmother to 11 month old twin boys and a five month old granddaughter ~ celebrating and cherishing their lives each day. The amazement and satisfaction of watching her four grown children make choices and decisions in responsible and independent ways. The fear of watching her dad battle cancer while living so far away, not ready to say good-bye. The worry about her mom and how she will hold up. Anger and confusion bumps off the gray matter cells as the 52 year old menopausal woman tries to understand why people are sometimes so cruel. Desire to be surrounded by family and friends who are loving and caring, trying to stay connected. And it is that need to be stay connected which has brought her back to her blog. To resolve to write so she may stay connected. So on her 'to do' list she adds one more item ~ * Remember to Nourish Your Soul each day.